In Loving Memory:

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My Papa . . Smh , he was an amazing man. He Loved me soo much . He looked at me & the rest of his grandchildren and said , ” That Ones Gon ’ Make it ! ” . . i Knew from then on i Had to make him proud . . Grandpa never said i Love You First . . & Onee day , we happened to be driving out of the driveway and he said , ” You Know What Boo Boo ? I Love Youu . ” It just warmed my heart to just hear those words from him . . without me saying it first for a change . . i began to cry but he didnt see me because it was dark & 7 pm in the wnter . But i could never forget that Wednesday Night . & For him not to be here and me not seeing his smile everyday, or him seeing me start high school , or Graduate . . It wasnt what i had planned on . Smh , i Miss him DEARLY . But im glad he’s no longer in pain . I Love You Papa <3

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It’s been almost two years since you killed yourself and it’s been almost a year since I’ve been to the cemetery to see you. I haven’t had the guts anymore because I know that when I do go, it’s to say goodbye. I love you so much, you’re my best friend and you always will be. But I have to let go, I have to move on. There isn’t a day I go without thinking about you. Your number is still in my phone and half my back is covered in a memorial for you. I feel like I’m going to be betraying you by what I have to do, but I know that you have always wanted what’s best for me. You’ve saved my life before but you’re not around now, I have to do my own saving. So when I go to the cemetery to see you, it will be soon. A couple weeks, probably labor day weekend because then it will have been a year exactly since the last time I was up there. I’m going to tell you how much I love you and say goodbye. Then I’m going to finally delete your number from my phone and begin the process of fading my tattoo. I will never forget you or stop loving you, but it’s time I started healing.

Sorry guys;

Have had a lot on my plate and am apparently running this on my own. Updates are coming promise!

<3,

Jess

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It’s been almost two years since you killed yourself and it’s been almost a year since I’ve been to the cemetery to see you. I haven’t had the guts anymore because I know that when I do go, it’s to say goodbye. I love you so much, you’re my best friend and you always will be. But I have to let go, I have to move on. There isn’t a day I go without thinking about you. Your number is still in my phone and half my back is covered in a memorial for you. I feel like I’m going to be betraying you by what I have to do, but I know that you have always wanted what’s best for me. You’ve saved my life before but you’re not around now, I have to do my own saving. So when I go to the cemetery to see you, it will be soon. A couple weeks, probably labor day weekend because then it will have been a year exactly since the last time I was up there. I’m going to tell you how much I love you and say goodbye. Then I’m going to finally delete your number from my phone and begin the process of fading my tattoo. I will never forget you or stop loving you, but it’s time I started healing.

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Every time I go to the hospital to get blood drawn, I hope your sister is working. She’s the only one I feel comfortable with seeing as I hate needles so much, but it also makes me feel a little more connected to you.

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You were just a dog, but as far as I’m concerned you mean just as much to me as a human. You’ve been there for fourteen years of my life. I’m not an animal person, but god I loved you. All the nights we lied under the bed crying, you were there when nobody else was. I’ll miss you bud, thanks for all those great years. 

2/10/96-8/8/10<3 

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It’s been 886 days since my best friend died in a tragic accident. I still feel the same way I did minutes after I found out. I still feel like I cannot breathe. I still don’t believe it. I haven’t deleted you off aim or out of my cellphone. It just feels like you’re still on vacation. I still spend my days walking around aimlessly wishing I wasn’t so alone. I still spend my nights crying and hoping this was all a nightmare. I would give my own life for you to be back here. Everyone misses you so much. I will never understand why this happened to you. You were the greatest gift to me and so many more.
I love you so fucking much and I need you now more than ever. We will reunite soon and do over everything you’ve missed. Nobody deserves to lose their life at thirteen. <3

Life has to end, love doesn’t.

Awesome quote by one of our awesome followers!!! Here’s something I want you guys to do if you’re bored and you feel like it. I’m not going to demand it, however it is  a nice thought. How about you guys come up with some advice on how to deal or find some quotes on death and grieving, or make some quotes of your own. 

<3<3<3<3,

Love, Peace, and Good Health,

Jess

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This was my candle speech for my Dad at my Sweet 16.


This is the most important candle I had to write. Since it was the most important, it is also the longest, since I wanted this candle speech to be perfect. The 17th candle is also known as the lucky candle, and it goes out to the first man in my life and the one who taught me to be the person I am today. I picked my Dad for my Lucky Candle because I see him as my Good Luck charm. It’s almost been 3 years since you have left us for a better life and I guess you can say I’ve changed a lot since then. I’ve evolved into a better person, with high hopes and dreams of pleasing your requests.
Every now and then, I’d think about the good memories that I have of you. The smell of your cologne, visiting you at work, the hard work you put into the yard of Mom’s dreams and all the times you’d sing to me. Your favorite songs to sing were We’re in Heaven and Home. Every now and then I’d listen to both songs, reminiscing on the memories of you and I, but the voice is never as real and meaningful as you sang it. You worked hard when it came to our family, and I never truly appreciated it until you were gone. I miss your voice echoing through the house, the taste of your cooking and the smile you put on Mom’s face.
I wish you could see the strong girl I’ve become. I have overcome problems I never thought existed, problems that never flashed my mind until they really did happen. There were difficult speedbumps, some that also threw me off the course. I‘d wish for you to come down from Heaven and help me solve my problems. But now as I think of it, all those times, you really were there. Although you were not physically present, you are watching down on me from Heaven as your spirit walks the earth. All of the resolved problems I have overcome, you were there to help me make that decision. This lucky candle is to thank you for everything you have given me and everything you have taught me. The good memories and the bad, they keep me moving every single day. I love you Daddy, and for the rest of my life, I’ll still have the everlasting role as your lady. So my last candle, the lucky candle, is in memory of the most important man in my life, my Dad.

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Love, Peace, and Good Health,

<3<3<3 Jess